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Tuesday, 29 January 2013

UNCERTAIN


EXPRESSIONS.



Motivated? inspired? confused? If feelings could be made bear,    
Maybe that could be vivid, but what   am I? just to stay there,
Noo! no!! I refuse, standing I will do. Fighting I will take my position,
The owner of the battles will fight for me.

Yes, no, yes, might be my thinking but the creator , Men’t it for his own glory.


I refuse to run but I am forced to crawl
I refuse to sleep but I am forced to snore,
I reject, I ignore, I assume but it keeps befalling me.
 



My mind is filled but not saturated, Facts not opinions, manhood not boyhood, I choose but am afraid of the consequences,
I want, but, can’t give to get,
I desire but don’t posses, the will to go for it.



Peer pressure,  social pressure is the enemy of all,
in a big room, I find solace being alone.
Pouring ink my pen can’t stop writing.
I feel it, I have it, and none can adjust my spirit right now.

A giant in me is almost awakening,
Preparations I am trying, but precisely not sure,
What my fate will be, I keep on guessing trying to find Solutions to my heart most desires,
Yes that sounds GOOD, Maybe it’s coz I love the pen.

I check in maybe I will find a little solace,
The writer makes no sense in my years,
Maybe ignorance is trying to overtake me. 


Hard work I push the accelerator to the limits,
bye-bye I say to ignorance,
On the highway am trying to pick the pieces.

Then and only then I find solace. I like something
Expressions by the color of the ink. Moving,
Explaining I can’t. writing I am, pouring my thoughts,
maybe I fell for it. What’s my fate.
being me I am trying , yes I love it. 
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